Ayam Penyet Wong Solo opened a branch in my hometown. I'm not sure how it tastes like but the shop is there for a loooong time but never open.

I missed him, still do, but I never tell. I'm very sure he doesn’t know that. I don’t have the strength to bear the deep wound each time he ignores my text.  Yes it hurts. It’s fucking excruciatingly painful.

But the pain seem to ease away when he agreed with my suggestion to try the Ayam Penyet someday. I know there’s nothing to be excited about since there is no guarantee and whatsoever but I'm surely want to smile due to the mutual agreement.

wanting

I am officially an engineer now. Lucky me. I really want him to become an engineer too; soon. Very soon.

The first training, NHO, was really boring. I dnt know what will happen tomorrow. I was so boring I text you, but how dare you did not reply my text message.

parting

Today I will leave my hometown, will leave him, will leave my family & rejoin some totally-hopefully-nice strangers. Tomorrow I will start working at a huge company, becoming what I wanna be. Do I fell good? Supposedly so, however, I hate the fact that I will leave him.

We don’t see each other much this week. It somehow gives a huge impact on me since we saw each other almost every day for the solid past month. I cried a lot in the past few days.

I went to market today for my last minute preparation. I go back home straight after that.  It was a hot morning, so I lie under the rotating ceiling fan and started to manage my text messages. I read some of the old messages. I was so happy during those times. I cried again. Hard. I wish I could see you before I go. I really want to. I was thinking of asking you out today, I know I will kiss you, listen to your heartbeat again, and hold your hand, dangling with those long pointed fingers.

Later in the evening, I went to a hypermarket, again for my last minute shopping. It was so fucked you when the escalator didn’t function and the elevator takes forever to serve. When I'm done with my shopping, I walk to my car. I can’t believe that for the last time, I bumped into you again; and your mother of course.  Oh my goodness! I am so tremendously happy! Your mother looked unwell. You told me she was suffering from upset stomach.

You were honking me when we were driving behind my car. Later you text me asking if I was scared that somebody was honking me. Like I don’t know it was you.

Sailing..

I got a medical appointment today. My plan was to request to be transferred to my new place, but the doctor & nurse refuse to let me go. They were reviewing me the situation, talking about the waiting list, the appointment set up and all. Therefore I stick to that hospital. Of course it doesn’t make them any richer or what so ever..

During check up, M called me; I rejected. Later while waiting at the pharmacy, I called him back. It was obviously amazing happiest news he wanted to share. He got a job interview tomorrow at a shipping company. He was thrilled, so was I. I am so happy I almost leap. Thanks God for hearing my prayers all these times.